Am I even listening to myself?

tl;dr - nope.

I’m in my second week of a wonderful new job.

I’m enjoying it, but like starting any new job… it is intense.

New people, new culture, new acronyms, new everything.

not listening to myself, according to AI. Feels about right.

As I was transitioning from my previous job to this one I decided didn’t want to lose momentum on this newsletter. I enjoy writing it and thought it’d be a good outlet.

Just like most weeks I put some thought into what I wanted to write about and carved some time out of my weekend to put fingers on keyboard.

It has been a slog.

I’ve put time in everyday into creating and finishing a post. There’s been few starts and stops and a few different versions.

The most recent post being about balancing motivation with the ability to execute. Matching what you want to get done with your current ability to get it done.

It was about starting new habits (like exercising) and keeping in mind that if my mental capacity and willpower was being used in full already (by, like, starting a new job) to adjust expectations accordingly.

For days I tried to write about this and it wasn’t coming out cleanly. The ideas feel clear, but on the page it was lorem ipsum.

Then, while brushing my teeth last night, I realized…. AM I EVEN LISTENING TO MYSELF?

I have very little mental capacity right now and I’m pushing myself to write.

Dude. Stop struggling. I need to match my goal to my ability. 🤦‍♂️

So there’s my lesson and I figured I’d still share it in case others are pushing on something and maybe shouldn’t. Let yourself off the hook a little on the other stuff you “want to do”, but don’t really have the capacity to do.

I’m still planning on hitting my 50 post goal for the year. The cadence just might look a little different.

And, for what it’s worth, once I let myself breathe a minute and got clarity, this post came out in like 25 min.